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the grand irony is I feel like I'm the opposite of your post. I am really really turned on by watching woman shit. So much so that it derailed my life and my artistic career just to draw this fetish when I should have been focusing on drawing stuff that would get me hired.
Why you ask?
Because some artists would draw my fetish yes, but then they'd always combine it with a dozen other fetishes I didn't like. The worst for me when it was always dick girls instead of normal women. Apparently just drawing a normal woman sitting on the toilet and shitting her brains out is not something people with my fetish like in the furry community; if you have one fetish why not adopt seven more? go big or go home; you're already fucked in the head for having my fetish.
My brain has always been broken, even before I discovered porn. I was cursed with the knowledge of knowing what my fetish was going to be for the rest of my life at a very young age; and it fucked me over. I told nobody of course, why would you tell anybody this? It's already beyond humiliating admitting to myself I even had this kink. Probably crippled my ability to ever be in a normal relationship as a result. It's actually led to this nightmare hell where even if a normal woman does hit on me, even if I'm relatively attractive and I don't think I'm ugly, all I have to do is imagine her seeing my porn library and running for the hills. I never blamed woman for the reason why I'm single. I blame my wretched diseased brain. I can't really blame women when I'm the one that's broken. I don't hate women, I hate the universe for damning with this fetish.
Even worse I realized you can't really get rid of a fetish no matter how hard you try, believe me I tried; sorry it's hard wired into you. I was more turned on by this wretched fetish than normal sex. I didn't draw porn because it brought me joy, I drew it out of desperation because my brain had a specific broken itch nobody else could scratch.
all I wanted to do was draw like Elton Pot. Of every artist I wanted to draw woman shitting, I wanted to see it in his style the most. I just wanted to see one artist; any artist draw my kink at a professional level, because it's like you said fetish artists only learn to be good enough to get themselves off then they stop improving.
You'd think his art style would be easy to mimic right? that's the funny thing about professionals, they make everything look easy. Trying to draw like him is the hardest thing on the planet, because of how deceptively easy it looks.
I originally wanted to do photo real painting, but then I realized for what I want that'd be too much effort for an art piece at the end of the day I couldn't show anyone else except a few hundred other perverts on the internet. To draw like elton pot I would have to do the equivalent of an artistic career for the furry community just to get my hands on his style at a high enough professional level. I can draw like him, I know what it takes to draw like him. the question is do I want to dedicate that much to drawing like him if I'm only drawing for pure pleasure?
I eventually learned how to get my fetish under control; you can never get rid of it, but you can atleast shrink its influence, I'm at the point in my artistic life where I want to draw more than just porn because I want to make art for more than just gooners, to draw like Elton Pot, it would be an artistic career in of itself for one community and fetish and I have to focus my fire power in other places.
You have to understand with a lot of us we've become drug addicts that can materialize our own addictions out of thin air, but much like a meth cook will eventually get dumber if he keeps smoking his own supply, if you spend too long being lost in the sauce getting high off your own supply it's just going to end badly artistically; usually in stagnation, but why would you care if you improve by that point?
You only picked up a pencil to get yourself off.
Edited at 2025/07/29 12:12:38
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