> even so I wouldn't demonize porn, because as addictive as it could be; the fault lied with me for never making the effort to change.
Not anyone's fault as long as you're conscious about you being a porn addict. Just like any other addiction, sometimes it just seems to happen without any visible explanation, and it's a struggle so hard that even the most herculean effort you'd take might seem like it'd put you at a standstill sometimes.
Recently I've come to terms with the fact that my sex/porn addiction might have become a part of myself and I don't guilt myself for it, nor think I'm a quitter for stopping to try and change things. I'm simply living my ordinary life while trying to make it manageable so it doesn't hamper neither my well being nor others', and if I need help to do that, I can ask for it without feeling any shame. Just because I'm a sex addict doesn't mean I'll become an offender.
Maybe that last thing is just me, but I believe there may be some truth to that and not many people are willing to even consider it. Who knows, maybe it'll even fade off eventually if I keep it checked for long enough.
Still, I think it wouldn't be a farfetched assumption to say that a good handful of Americans, religious or not, are too full of themselves to regard seeking help for their personal issues as something good. And they that they know about vice so well they know how to prevent you from falling into it. But when it comes to the real thing, they don't know what to do to put people back on track, and many addicts themselves seem to actively refuse the help because they say they're "fine", either because they dismiss it as nothing to worry about or something that they themselves will buff right out.
The US may be obsessed about growth in all of its variants, but as far as personal growth goes, they don't really seem to give a shit.
Edited at 2025/06/03 06:32:19
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